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S U M M E R 2 0 1 2 .

WOOT WOOT . Has 9 months really gone by ? Is it really only eight days until school is over ? … THIS IS TOO UNREALISTIC . Yet, all praise goes to God for giving us this break ! Lord, I pray that I will use the time wisely for Your glory . Especially to spend more time with You ♥

Okay, so as soon as school is over, the very next day I am going to Ocean City with Pancake <3 캬ㅑㅑㅑ, I haven’t really hung out with her this year so I’m excited ~ It’s also my birthday that week, but being with my friend and her family is already enough . And then possibly Super Llama’s birthday party ? And then a Llama reunion & Kings Dominion ! And then and then, summer retreat ! And theeen, my daddy comes back home ! And as well as my brother ! Ah . This is going to be fantastic, baby .

After those 2½ weeks of glorious resting, I’m going into total 열공 mode where I’m pretty much studying ahead for school, catching up on my reading, exercising, sleeping enough, etc. I screwed up my sophomore year, but more on that later .

More importantly, I’m going to use the time to renew my relationships with others and especially God . As I said earlier, I am going to spend more time with Him and get into the habit of it . For everything I do should be for Him . As for friends, they tell me that I study too much LOL . Honestly it’s true, yet I’m doing this so that I may finish my SATs by this year . However, I do know that relationships between people are very important as well so I will try to hang out with others as well at least once a week .

Last of all, during the first week of August I am going to the Cherokee reservation down in the south to spread the love of Jesus . I’m really excited and I hope by the time I get there, I am ready .

Since I have let the Lord come into my heart, I hope that He will continue to mold me into a woman of God . I have much much more to learn, but with Him by my side I feel at peace .

“Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and will not be afraid; for the Lord God is my strength and my song, and he has become my salvation.” Isaiah 12:2

傷心 .

Times like these, I silently cry and my Father comforts me . 

“But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them who despitefully use you, and persecute you” —Mathew 5:44 KJV

Better is one day in your courts, better is one day in your house …

One day I am going to share my story .

Chasm .

My life is boring .

Not in the sense that I do not play enough or have no joy, but these days I’ve been feeling this emptiness . This emptiness where I want to serve the Lord far greater than just my community (not that smaller groups do not matter) . I feel like God wants me to go out to the world .

I mean, the life I have been living from past to present is just so … safe . Don’t get me wrong, I am very very thankful that God has kept His protection around me and will continue to do so, but I think of billions of people out there who are suffering . I’m constantly thinking something has to be done . Not only do billions of people lack nutrition, water, safety, etc., they have not heard the gospel . They don’t even get the chance to know Jesus with his unconditional love and what he has done for them . That someone in this world loves them to the ends of the earth .

As I finally gave myself up the Lord this year, I have so so so much to learn about Him . And He has so much for me . I don’t know what God has stored for me in the future, but I truly pray that God will lead me to His will .

Lord, please use me .